simplicity in its most difficult and complex form//.

agian?

2009-02-21T19:50:00.000-08:00

tears roll down my face
i remember you
i remember.
how we would stay up all hours of the night
how ild wait for you to rapp on my door
how i would call you on your way to school
how i would call you when i got home
how i would tie up the phone for you
i miss those days
tears fall down my face knowing the girl "you didn't like"
is now with you
and here i am
i have a new one now
better than you ever were
but he has a best friend
he hangs out with her too
im scared she'll fall for you
though im sure she does already
you will probably leave me for her someday
just like him
you didnt even say i love you before you hung up
of cource
i can't handle the worry agian
i want to trust you.

sex

2008-12-18T17:37:00.000-08:00

a calming sensation to hear your voice
to feel you touch exhale rejoice
tender soothing still and warm
im falling into your open arms
to feel your embrace
against my skin
a perfection in time
to steal a moment is no crime
relax your body
let me hold you from behind
fall gently against me
fall sleepy, feel calm
im always here no need to alarm
a soft kiss
against your neck
tingles sent down your entire body
let me whisper in your ear
breathe deep
only to hear me
a solid figure appears
against me
now pinned to the floor
a repetitive thing
just like before
so much tension i want to take away
to pleaseand to pleasure
i will show you now
just wait and see
ill be gentle
ill set you free
screaming and shaking and moaning some more
feel our bodies on the floor
pinned me down to unleash me
now its time to set you free

awake

2008-12-18T17:33:00.000-08:00

a subconscious statepart asleep but part awake
you come in but i dont hear
a soft and gentle, tired, clear
unsure of what i see is real
are you here, is it you i feel
arms around me
warm and tight
an amazing darkness, light
i get closer to feel you near
it feels so real
are you here?
my heart stops
to a quiet room
a possibility of perfection
or certain doom
who is lying with me in my bed
is it you kissing my head?
i turn my head to see my shooting star
your really here
so near
not far
a smile breaks through
my joyful face
a perfect moment
in your embrace

the moment

2008-12-18T17:31:00.000-08:00

there had to be something abut that night
some kind of passion in your eyes
in that moment all was right
there had to be something about that nigh
ti can see forever in your eyes
something about you made things alright
i was in a trance from your eyes so blue
it was the moment i fell in love with you
there had to be something about that day
some kind of spell, you had to sayin that moment all was okay
there had to be something about that day
i could see perfection in your smile
something about it made me stay a while
i was stunned by your words too
it was the moment i fell in love with you

second chance

2008-12-18T17:30:00.000-08:00

i give you my heart
please dont squeeze it
i can tell
gently keep it in your palm
so it may rest quiet and calm
you may choose to give it back
if you do i will lack
a holder for my broken heart
it wont mend
just fall apart
ill keep mine in my hand
its only solid protection land
trying to find someone to hold it for me
someone to embrace it tenderly
if you do keep it my promise is true
i will always be in love with you

cure/medication

2008-12-18T17:28:00.000-08:00

when i look in the sky
i find the answers to why
why i have you and your touch
why i love you oh so much
why i have you here for me
how youve made me so happy
i love you babe i swear its true
and you are my cure to feeling blue

last chance

2008-12-18T17:27:00.000-08:00

his touch is a power so strong
his smile makes my heart beat
i have waited for him for so long
and what we have will always defeat
when he kisses me i always smile
he always knows what to say
ild walk to see him by the mile
ill never give this love away
when you hold me i feel at home
when im with you i never want to go
when im with you im not alone
i hope this love wil grow and grow
when im with you the clouds dance
i swear you are my one last chance

one liner

2008-12-18T17:26:00.001-08:00

dont touch my heart.
i know it will break.
i know your a thief.
its what you will take.

messy

2008-12-18T17:25:00.000-08:00

the thought of you in my mind
its not too long before i find
myself dreaming of you here
together us two, theres nothing to fear
for you protect me from all that is dark
if i were a tree yould be the bark
a sheild
a blanket
from disasterous things
and that is what your thought brings

used to be

2008-12-18T17:24:00.000-08:00

your candle burns bright in my room
with no light
squeeze tight
stay and love me
last the night
choose to stay
not to go
light your candle
watch the glow
a shadows cast
looks like you
open arms
smiles too
overjoyed to see your face
to feel the warmth in your embrace
windows opened
candles out
smoke fills my lungs
cant scream or shout
stuck unable to live or breathe
cling to your shadow
of what used to be

thanks for the reminder...

2008-12-18T17:23:00.000-08:00

when i say sunshine
i mean it allit just means
i can hardly wait for your call
without my sunshine
there wouldnt be light
with out my sunshine
my life wouldnt be bright
when skies are grey
you make them clear
i feel like (scratched out-you are my one and only)
i can have you for all my years
you are the only sun
in all the skies
the thought of which
makes me dream of your eyes

(my ex gave that back to me when we broke up lmao)

stupid fucker

2008-12-18T17:22:00.001-08:00

the thought of you makes my heart skip a beat and being with you is such a treat i miss you much when your away i hope that you will always stay

where is my boy tonight?

2008-12-18T17:20:00.000-08:00

My hands are cold
My arms are blue
And my mind is trapped in thoughts of you
Help me out
Let me in
Be on my mind instead of him
I don’t know What I should do
I’m at a road
And have no clue
Which way to turn
Time catch up with me
I want someone to set me free
I’m stuck in a moment
I’m lost in a time
Writing up poems
That awkwardly rhyme
Marking a tree stump
With our names
Now that it’s over
I guess that’ll change
Its still raining outside
Your arms surround me
My vision was clouded
Now I can see
I’m now so warm and
Your embrace’ll save me from any storm

to the words i never said

2008-12-18T17:19:00.000-08:00

What you can't see
What you can't know
It still has me wondering why
I didn't let go I'm confused with no questions
That I have left to say
I'm alone on these cushions thoughts passing the day
What is going to happen
Who will this please
Who can I go to to answer all these
I'm lost in a labarinth of situations in my head
Closed hands to the questions left unanswered
To the words we never said

Monopoly

2008-12-18T17:18:00.000-08:00

This is no get out of jail free card "boy you better role those dice 'til you get doubles" I'm so sick of waiting around for you to realize what it is you want I'm not the kind of girl who wants to get caught so I stay away I'm stuck inside this glass room again problems pass through and in and it stops here there's a line drawn in the false hopes of all the fates and meant to be's I kind of like what your saying too bad I see the warning signs saying your not mine you belong to someone else and your collars a little tight there darling and you want me to help loosen it up? You've got to choose you've got one thing with me and another for her both are worth saving but what's worth fighting for ild love to wait around forever baby but you know ild just get bored.

slow hourglass

2008-12-18T17:16:00.000-08:00

Darkness falls upon my mind
When I’m alone
This red stream comes to be
When thoughts have time to flourish
Can you save me from my self?
Or am I destined to be this way
One last scar to ease the pain
Cold, white and broken
No time to bestow or invest
In anything that may come of this
I’ve walked among the darkness
And I have come upon a path
One in which I’m not sure will last
But I’m trying to follow
For as long as I can
I wonder if it’s right
But it’s an action with no plan
So fall into the ocean
And walk along the shore
Cause with you I don’t see pain anymore
You’re selling me a bargain that I can’t resist
I hope what happens will cut down the list
What else is there to say?
What else is there to do?
All I know is; I enjoy this time with you
It’s a slow hourglass
And I know what’s happening at the end
What I am unsure of is how you’re going to bend
It’s make it or break itLeft turn, or right
You’re the only one who can decide
Whether you want darkness or light

somewhere

2008-12-18T17:11:00.000-08:00

somewhere hiding beneath
you will find me
not what you can see
but you can pick me apart internally
beneath the grass
the stars
the sea
under it all you will find me
im not what you can feel
im not what you can touch
im not of any senses i never liked them much
you can still breath me ina delicate pefect sound
you can hear me
your heart with every pound
i am your life
running through your veins
through every aspect of your life
im your soul im your thoughts
im the one somewhere...

she is...

2008-12-18T17:10:00.000-08:00

her eyes are clouded over, you wish you knew what is on her mind
her hair is blowing in the wind outside
and the snow is falling all behind
and your stunned that such beauty and perfection is in sight
but how can you wonder
when its all you ever hadits always there
her hand in yours is all youll ever need her mind and her soul
will furfill and always feedwhat ever you want
what ever you wish for
she'll be there
friends last forever

no one knows me

2008-12-18T17:07:00.000-08:00

Staring at the window through the glass
You can see everything that’s been done to me
With your honest smile and your spirit free
I can see myself falling And I don’t know what to do
Pick me up before you go
And make sure I’m on my feet
Cause if I’m lagging behind
I know I’ll never catch up to speed
Crawling on my hands and knees
Blood scraped and bruised
No one believes
How can they look at me in the eyes?
And tell me I’m a girl who always lies
They don’t know who I am anyway
I am stuck here and can’t get away
Trapped behind a constant smile
Crying behind it all the while
And no one knows me
Hiding beneath it all
Every mask I wear
Will they ever fall?
I can’t feed these flames any more
It’s a wildfire in my head
Lying hours on my bed
Staring at the ceiling with no answers to why
I can’t find myself underneath this sky
It gets harder to breathe with every breath I take
And every morning until I never wake
I’m crawling on my hands and knees
Blood scraped and bruised
No one believes

i have lost who i was

2008-10-27T09:42:00.000-07:00

so i see him still
\and i know what hes thinking
he wants to be next to me
but knows i cant be that for him
so hes with her
and hell stare at me while he kisses her
wishing my lips were pressed agianst his
and when i see him
i see every moment we were together
and i wanted him forever
i know somethings missing
and my heart is forever broken
i will never be the same person
i cant trust anyone around me
and love is much more than i had hoped for
"they told me it was pefect"
now what am i?
i am broken and seeing how he hurt me so
i will never let him go
but for now
ill just have to slip into another world
another girl inside of me
wear a smile when im around him
and pretend to be ok
im not ok
im not ok
i wont ever be the same
and in my heart i read his name
i have lost who i was
and i cant find her anymore
hes put a lock behind
what i thought was an open door
we used to talk about every single thing
and now he stares at me cold
like i am nothing
but i know it
inside him
its me he wants to see
but for now
ill have to find
who i used to be

2008-03-28T06:37:00.000-07:00

like my writing?

2008-01-19T20:08:00.001-08:00

im blind, i thought i told you to turn of that light, old un-relaible, i hope you stay, my heart attack just worsened today, and im still praying for tomorrow and living for yesterday, making mistakes that won't go away, i can still see the stars, in the sky that night, we slept on the couch outside on the hill by my house, do you remember how i died in your arms...watching the star shower i wish i had been there, inside of you, was it really true all those words you spoke or lies, you make make me sick, and you never called i sat there all night long, i knew you wouldn't in my mind, but you forced my heart to believe it, i guess it was unforunate i left my heart on the line, ever since you hung up, i have been fine, in the sense that "mornings feel like midnight" and "headaches cause me to smile"...i don't get it either so stop asking what it means, i envy what you are, because its all i have ever known, i watched you walk away that night, i saw the street lamp die, the darkness swallowed you into hell, i hope i never see you agian, i love you too, don't worry its forever

to the one who envies me?

2008-01-19T09:35:00.001-08:00

im deeply distorted inside, depressed, and sincerly divinely alone, though i wear a mask to seem okay its not true, im a fake, a liar, acting my way with smiles through life...inside im screaming for help out of this darkness...you envy me, when i am only what noone wishes to become

poem i wrote

2008-01-19T09:00:00.000-08:00

stale hearted, i see my eyes inside your soul, turning into ashes, breathing into your sweet lungs, fire sets in your apartment, and i wished you had drowned, in the tears that fell the night i left home without you, i swallowed pills to make you go away but part of me still feels you here, hoping you have disappeared into non-exsisting times where i was never born, i never would have felt your anguish in "that love", tell me that line agian, the one "i'll never leave", that is a promise broken, i said i would believe, either way its me alone in this broken room, lights will flicker in memories of you, still i see your parents house in the dark corner of my mind, never welcome in there agian so looking at the freeway underneath this window will have to do, lying lifeless on the black top, your words out of my brain, oh my god, don't you say the lords name in vain...."she promised you everlasting" , what you got was a bus pass to stop breathing

mee likey...

2008-01-19T07:25:00.000-08:00

mee likey stuff too...so lets see what do i like...i like the sony ericsson and the samsung double flip phone... i also like zunes, my boyfriend has one, its like a better version of the ipod, i love it :)...i will post the pictures of the double flip and zune later, but check it out on google :)

my night watching the simpsons movie, pizza, my friend, and my sick boyfriend :(

2008-01-19T07:08:00.000-08:00

yeah, so i rented movies..1408 and the simpsons movie...ordered in a pizza and invited my friend jamie-lee over, i waited around til midnight when my boyfriend got off work to come see me...and give me a hug before going home...lately he has been working like crazy, he has two jobs, and school, i have singing lessons, play practise, and a job...we hardly have time together, but now on top of everything hes sick, and he never gets sick...and when he does, its bad...he showed up coughing and conjected, i felt so bad i just wantred to hold him all night long...make him feel better, it felt like we were married and he was coming home from work...it was cute, than this morning he was on his way to work and popped in...hew stayed for almost and hour...and i got him some neo-citron...watching him throw up...and develop a fever....i felt so bad for him...so i got him a cold cloth, he sat on my lap and i took care of him...it was adorable, i love him so much, it was a moment in life where looking into is eyes makes me melt...he is my shooting star, my wish come true, if you knew him you'ld love him too :)

panic! panic

2008-01-18T19:26:00.000-08:00

my boyfriend told me they broke up...and i was like what the fuck they are releasing a new song. they can't be...and then i see that they got rid of the ! how i will miss the ! in panic at the disco, notw i have to change my favorite music from panic! at the disco, to panic at the disco...im sorta bummed but hey, same guys, same music, its alllll good, so i have no clue who im writing to, whoever reads this i guess, no one probably ever will, but if you do make i comment saying "i did" and i will laugh and say thank you out loud, even though you won't hear me, hehehe so im chewing some nice EXTRA BUBBLEMINT gum, and in my school's lovely library, "working" on a nutrition assignment on "healthy snacking"....SNACKING IS MADE TO BE JUNKY, what is wrong with the world, i swear my project will be called PROTEST AGIANST HEALTHY SNACKING, and my food choice will be triple chocolate something...muffins, cookies, cake...i don't know i will come up with something, i could be watching our school's basket ball team ream another school but i have to finish the project to watch the game...which doesn't make sense since its due thursday?...im so weird that im writing to nobody, im a total creeper aren't i...then you go to pete wentz's profile and he gets 55 comments and stuff, when i have none, people read his and noone reads mine, oh well maybe some da i will be known...pete's lyrics are amazing aren't they, though FUTCT is pretty much sexual inuendos, lol i live for the old stuff, but rock out and dance to the new stuff, im excited for the dvd and the album to come out next, yay, the documentry should be fun, watching random crap lol, hopefully we'll actually get to see some real stuff and no more, oooh ashlee is taking pete away from the band crap...so dumb, anyway, ta-ta for now

pictures for peter

2008-01-14T16:57:00.000-08:00

i made these, i think they are pretty sweet, i hope you like them

amy alice//.

a poem i wrote during our break...

2008-01-14T16:15:00.000-08:00

pete wentz is my inspiration, he is my favorite writer, i fall in love with his lyrics, like i fall for my boyfriends eyes...

aftermath-

i don't think kissing you ever felt so good

you held me tighter than i thought you could

it just keeps me going

your tender agressiveness

i fall for you with every kiss

if its over, and you force your lips upon mine

i'll come back to you

sincere and divine

so light headed

i want you so

how is it i ever

let you go

you tell me you love me

say you'll never leave

and now im stuck alone

strangling to breathe

thinking of moments i thought would last

and now that its over

present is past